Kathy: my bestfriend!!

I met Kathy when I was in 6th grade. We were classmates back then. Prior to that, I've heard things about her both good and bad. But when I met her and befriended her I proved it all wrong. She's not that bad. It's just that people misinterprets her actions. Well, those were non-sense, and besides that was still in grade school. I would have lunch and weekends at their house. We'd go somewhere together with her cousins.
When we went to high school, we're in the same school and were in the same section. Just like in grade school, I'd spend lunch and weekends in their house. We'd make projects together. But then, high school is the start of peer pressure and social development. She met knew friends and I too. But that didn't stop us from being friends, except that she spends much more time with them though. I admit I was jealous. I started to distance myself from her. But I'd stay by her side whenever she needs me. She knew that.
When we were in our sophomore year, things got worst. She's with her "sosyal" friends while I'm with my bookie-wormy friends. There's a larger gap between us. I mean, I feel like I don't know her anymore. But before that school year ended, they had a conflict. They would talk bad things to her the same as what they have done to her in our freshman year. I went to her and asked if she's okay. And we're back again. We'd do the things we used to do.
Our junior year was hard. She transferred to other school and I was left in the same school. Our communication line was cut and stuff like that. Rumors spread that I backstabbed her and stuff like that. I was hurt and I know she also was because she thought it was true. She was so mad at me that time. our communication line was totally blocked. We would try not to see each other on the streets or in any event that we would see each other we'd try not to speak. But during her birthday, I sent both an apology and birthday message. I got her number from a classmate. There we would exchange a few messages but we wouldn't see each other on the streets. I don't know why, but there were no chances that we meet up on the streets.
We haven't seen each other until our freshmen year in college. We had more freedom this time. We arrange to meet up and have some fun. When I saw her, I was so happy that I really really hugged her. From then on, we would travel together and take a lot of pictures. We'd meet up somewhere or go to a bar with some friends.
And now that it's her 18th birthday, I'd like to dedicate this blog entry and the following poem to her:
We've been friends ages ago,
We've spent laughter,
We've spent tears,
We've exchange thoughts.
We had conflicts,
We had bad times,
We had most of everything,
But we're still friends.
Though we do not see each other much often,
I hope and pray that we'll stay true to each other,
And be forever in each other's hearts and minds.
I love you, Best!

xoxo,
jode

My Faith in God

My P.E 3 class was dissolved and I don't know which class to go. So, I auditioned for the theatre for me to get an exemption and just have my grade from the theatre director. But, unfortunately, I wasn't able to get in. And I start panicking! I don't know what to do. Enrollment has past gone and I can't drop my subject without paying it. I don't want to drop any subject because I'll be transferring next semester. I don't want to ruin my record.
When I went home that night, my tears start falling right after I locked my door. I started crying. I'm losing hope. I'm so confused. I felt so stupid and that.That day has been so tiring: my phone was nearly snatched when I was riding a jeepney, I don't have money for the rest of the week and my mom won't send me money, I wasn't able to get in to the theatre, I don't know which class to go for my P.E. 3 and my phone's battery is empty. I cried for almost an hour. Rolling over my bed, walking here and there. I don't know what I was doing. I felt like cursed. Maybe this is what I got for wishing too much. Or maybe this is God's way of testing me. I prayed while crying. I asked for his guidance.I don't want to get ruined. I don't want to be lost.
After praying I tried to calm myself and grab my fully charged phone and turned it on. There were so many messages came from the people I care about and who also cares about me. Then I received my mom's message saying that she sent me money and she wants me to go home this weekend. I was like, "Wow! Thank God! Such a relief!" I felt lighter. Then I started solving my problems one by one. That night I was able to solve my problems. I already have a class for my P.E. 3 and I already have my allowance.
God is really here. We may not see Him face to face but I know he's always beside us, guiding us in every step we make and helping us in every struggle we go through. I might not be going to church that much but I have faith in God. He'll always be there as long as you believe in Him. So, keep believing!

xoxo,
jode