The Queens Scribble

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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Dunno!

I enrolled as an AB student because I know that my heart goes for the 'arts' and I mean the liberal kind of art. When I was still in high school I started to think of what course I would take. I first decided to take up Mass Communication. But I feel like I don't fit in in that course. I thought of Communication Arts. I found it in one of the magazines that I'm fond of reading and collecting. So from then on it was either Mass Communication or Communication Arts: both in the field of communication. Then the big trend of health care courses came, especially the nursing field, my whole plan was like destroyed. My mother (and my aunts and uncles from the States) is forcing me to take this course up. I told her I don't want to. I defended myself but then she won. So I was just like, "Okay, fine! Whatever! You'll be the one who'll pay for all the shit I'll be making in college!" So there. I ended up planning my nursing career. Even in our yearbook, my future career in our batch prophecy is a Dean of a nursing department in a famous school. But as the school year closes, I quit it. I don't want to be part of the swarming crowd of nurses out there. I mean I can't just do what's in. I hate following trends! I'm not even a fashion victim yah know. So when I enrolled I was like in doubt of what to take up. I'm really still in doubt. As I take a look at the school brochure, there were only a few AB courses. There is Mass Communication but I don't think I'll fit in in the journalism world. I'm more on the features stuff. There isn't Communication Arts which I think I like best. Then I was intrigued with the course "International Studies". I was like, "dude, it sounds international! I can travel! Paris, baby!!" I laughed at that. Then I decided to take the course up.

But as I examine the prospectus after enrolling, I said to myself it was such a heavy course. I'll be dealing with international business here like 'International Relations', 'International organizations' and stuff like that. I was like, "Whoa!! I thought I'll be traveling a lot with this course?" But then I said to myself I have to stand up for this. This is my decision. I had the chance to take up entrance exam of the other school and take up another course but I didn't knew about it. I should stand for what I did.

And now I'm planning to transfer to the school I liked best and shift to AB English. Kuya Ramon's official enrollment form influenced me to shift to this course. He is a fourth year AB-English student. He has so many English classes that I really found interesting. He even said that they made a magazine last semester as a requirement. And I was like, "wow! I could be an intern in Candy or Seventeen through this." This is what I really like. I like to write. I like to read. I like to be in the creative writing department of the world!!

I thought if I enroll as an IS student I could learn more and improve my writing. But I was wrong. And now, I'm in doubt; should I continue my way as a diplomat or should I go back and get the course that I really wanted?

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

inexperienced

At a very young age, I’ve already known so many things in life. From politics to economy to show business to books to sex to love and many other things. I feel so mature because I’m too confident with what I’ve got in mind. When I started going to college, I didn’t had a hard time adjusting with the new environment. It’s coz yah know, I’ve seen all those stuff in TV and in the movies and have read on books and magazines and have even heard about it from older friends and colleagues. Through those I know what to expect and what not to. But then as I go deeper and deeper in my college journey I learned that something’s missing. I feel like I’m an incomplete puzzle. I think and search for that missing piece in me. Then I learned, I lack EXPERIENCE. Seeing all those stuff in TV and the movies is not enough. Reading them on books and magazines are not enough. Or even just hearing them are enough. There’s this line from a song, “you have to bleed just to know you‘re alive…”. Remember that song? That’s “Iris” by Googoo Dolls. You see in that line you need to get hurt to know you’re alive. Just like in life you have to experience it before you learned about it. And that is my problem.
There are times that you’ll see me sitting somewhere with my college friends talking about relationships and that. There are times that some can say I’m a veteran on relationships. But when somebody unknown enters our conversation and asks, “how many boyfriends have you had?”. I would just laugh and say, “Zero!” And she would either be speechless or say, “Why?” or say, “That’s unbelievable! How come you know all of these things?” I would just be like smiling at them and laugh but then deep inside I’m asking myself why I haven’t got a boyfriend. It’s like I’m saying such stuff to my friends who would come to me and ask for help and not even have any experience on those stuff. I’m like an inexperienced doctor. I’m like basing all my knowledge on other people’s experience and not on my own.
And now I feel so small. A college girl who has no experience whatsoever. I’m nothing compared to those who have done nasty things and have learned from it. I wish I was one of them. I could’ve learned more than what I have right now.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

incomplete start

Going back to school this semester is a bit hard for me. Three of my closest college friends have already transfered to another school. I was about to come with them but due to some reasons, i was left behind in the old school.

Though I still have friends left in my present school, it doesn't feel like it was before. I feel discontented. There are so many things that I'll be missing. The lunches we had at Gyver's house, the pranks that Glenn and Gyver make, and Franz's reaction whenever he's being tricked. I'll miss the after class and before class tambay we had at the lobby of our building. I'll miss the jokes and the stories. I'll miss it all.

Though we've just known each other for more or less a year, we feel like we've known each other for years. We're like brothers and sisters. We're family. And we are one despite our differences. Though we are now apart, we'll still make it a point to see each other once in a while. And hopefully, still have this bond we had and hopefully, we can make it stronger day by day.



xoxo,
jode

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

i was tagged!!!

I WAS TAGGED BY faye01...

A.people who have been tagged must right their answers on their BLOG and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.Tag 8 people.Those who tagged cannot refuse.

B.These 8 peoples must state who they were tagged by.You cannot tag the people who already tagged you.Continue this game by sending 8 other peoples:).

1.what was the last word/phrase you said?

-huh?

2.what do you miss the most??

-my friends!!!!huhuhu...

3.what are you supposed to be doing right now??

-having a class....but the teacher says we'll just go back next meeting...hahaha!

4.what was the last movie you watched??

-The Chronicles of Narnia (Prince Caspian)

5.what's your ideal lover like?

-kind, sweet, smart, has a sense of humor, caring, romantic tsaka yung hindi manloloko!!wahahahaha!!!

6.what are you doin right now??

-guess what??

7.would you go after his/her looks??

-well, at first sight, i would..it's the first thing we see..but when it comes to relationships, i might!!!hahahaha!

8.if the person you secretly like is already attached,what would you do??

-still like him and wait....malay natin magkahiwalay sila di ba??heheheh....

9.is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?

-Super yeah!!!.

10.what was your section when you were in gr.1?

-i forgot....i guess it was Laurel??public school kasi eh, so we use names...pero lumipat ako sa isang school sa pasig that same year at section ako!!!hahahha!!

11.is being tagged fun??

- Oh, yeah!!

12.have you learned something new today??

-Yeah, never to walk in anyone's shadow!!hahhaaha!!!kiddin'!!!i learn something everyday!!almost random facts and stuff about life and school!!

13.what do you want to own right now??

-the new hp laptop that comes with a stylus and the 16GB iPhone!!!hahaha!!Oh, can i add a photographer's camera???hahaha!!!and oh, there's one more thing i want to own: KIA Picanto!!!!Hahahahha!!!.

14.what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you?

-nice, friendly, pretty, smart, bubbly!!hahaha!!tapos, tapos, tapos, adik!!hahaha!!Adik to kay chris tiu weh!!!hahaha....

15.would you rather be single and rich or married and poor??

-SINGLE & RICH!!

16.what your favorite C2 flavor??

-apple??? :D

17.would you give your all in a relationship??

-no!!i should save something for myself, too!!everyone should do that!!

18.when was the last time you got starstuck??

-when i saw my face in the mirror!!hahaha!! xD

19.Who do you want to meet right now?

-uhm, the jonas' brothers??hahaha!!oh, AJ Perez would do!!hahah!

20.what was the title of the song you last listened to?

-Angels Cry by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

I'll tag:

-jasmin-

-reinjo-

-elaine-

-derder-

-bheeyuh-

-ezra-

-jaime-

-lady-