can I let him go?

Why is he always on my mind? Why do I still love him despite of the hurts he had caused me? Why is it so hard to let him go?

I try not to think about him but he is in everything I do, in everything I say. It's like his shadow is everywhere. And everything around me reminds me of him. S**t! Why is he always on my mind?

I admit it. I cried because of him. And I admit that I am jerk for doing that. I cried because I know for a fact that I could never have him. And the last time was because he lied to me. There was one time I cried because he's not going to text me nor talk to me. It was like, I'm gonna die. And how I wish I was a completely different person. Many times I've been hurt but I still hold on to him eventhough I know he's not going to be mine.

My bestfriend would always say, "Let go of him, best. He's not worth it." Yeah. She's absolutely right but I still can't. It's so hard to let go of something that you have started to love. He's been here (in my heart) for 6 damn years! And I don't know when will I ever learn to let him go. Or the worst,

can I let him go?